Choosing the Road Ahead

I've been spending a lot of time looking at my map. I'm at a cross-roads, due a new assignment. It's not like a new assignment is completely my choice, not even close, but I do get to make a 'wish list.'

I've never been good at definitives. Never been good at choosing one thing. I chose to my career because I couldn't choose another. Well I guess that's selling it short. Really I've just had one life goal for a long time now, and it may sound cheesy, but my life goal is to look back on my life on the final day of my life and think, 'that was one hell of a ride.' So my choice seemed easy.

Then I was choosing a major in college. I didn't have to really choose that because I knew my profession - atleast for four years. So I chose art because of the skill involved. It was something I wanted to know because I always want to know. About everything. If there would have been a guitar major I probably would have chosen that. And it's a no-brainer that if the government would pay for me to strum, I'd sign on for another four.

The biggest choice I faced was to marry Alison. A life together. It was the biggest - and easiest. Plus, everyone says marriage is a 'hell of a ride.' ;) And it has been, and will continue to be - some kind of ride.

But now it's decision time again, and the circumstances make an 18 year-old's 'ride' goal seem just that - adolescent. So what to do? I've got this belief that the right path will show itself. It hasn't failed me yet. It reveals itself in all kinds of ways though, subtle and blatant, in the heart and in the mind, or just in an instinct. And the decision made too soon is often times made on antiquated information by the time the subsequent action is taken.

Patience.

As much as possible.